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Trapped

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The escape I seeked seems to have taken over. Bigger than the situation. I was running away, hit a wall, found a secret door. I wish I didn't enter at times. I wish I could stay inside too.

I fed the escape. Gave it more meaning, more importance than I should've. I fed the escape and now it won't stop eating.

I think I might be trapped. And I'm very afraid.
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Comments

Stephaine said…
Sweetie, you've got enough going on without an escape that complicates things. An escape should be a refuge if it's not, in the words of Mariah Carey, "Shake it off".
kono said…
don't be afraid.

i don't know the details of what you are going through. but i do know, like i did, you'll get through your rough times.

even when the whole world starts to cave in, remember, you are strong!

-l
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candoor said…
I think I understand this too well and might not want to understand it as well as I think I do, but I suppose remaining noncommittal just feeds the escape all the more (and I'm not sure if I'm talking to you or me or the two of us or the world or what)...
michele said…
Wow that was too deep.
grace said…
I've surfed here from blogmad, love your stuff!
swan_pr said…
stephaine: thanks. you are too right. you could've said I know better... I would've agreed :)

kono: thank you for reminding me, of everything :) you did come out strong too!

le routier: je t'expliquerai en francais bientot! merci de ta visite, et bonne chance avec ton nouvel emploi et ton anglais surtout!

candoor: and if you're wondering, yes that makes sense. a lot. thank you.

michele: yeah, right from the bottom of the well ;)

grace: thank you, come back anytime :)
Stephaine said…
Yeah, sorry about that I had flashback to having a conversation with myself and that's what I told me.
Chris said…
At least you are conscious enough to catch that your escape has become a prison, a weight around your neck.

I can imagine what a startling moment it was when you made this realization.

I hope you find the will to take the next step that you need to take to escape from your escape:)

Chris
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swan_pr said…
chris: I think that the realization scared me more than the situation itself. amongst all the stuff that's going on, this should not be an issue, thus should be dealt with. and has been.
swan_pr said…
chris: I think that the realization scared me more than the situation itself. amongst all the stuff that's going on, this should not be an issue, thus should be dealt with. and has been.